#ok i'm apologizing again that was rancid

[cyberspacebear]

they're also one of my favorite duos LOL (naiden on top) but i meant in terms of like actually being kind of shitty people. get slime and nick on the mic and you will come up with one of the most morally deplorable and probably sexist bits possible but goddamn will it be gas

oh wait you are so right on that, they're way too comfortable. it's like everyone is laughing but sometimes you have to remember that being friends with a couple women and gays does not = infinite passes to cross the line

i do love nick and aiden as a duo though too. (i'm going to ignore the ship name and give you the benefit of the doubt that you mean it respectfully) honestly, aiden ends up enabling nick as much as slime does because he just crumples when nick starts saying shit. e.g. episode 141 and the milkshake premium, where nick is just going nuts and aiden is powerless to hold him back

[imissthembutitwasntadisaster]

Hi! Sorry if this is complete out of the blue (feel free to just ignore me!) I was one of the ppl talking in the tags of your kids fiction post and I just wanted to 1) apologize and 2) clarify my statement to mean I think fiction that means the most to me is about Duty and Obligation and shouldering the burden of Goodness for its own sake, not that ~all~ good fiction needs to be morally pure and instructive and all that (absolutely not I need rancid villains for Fun and My Health). You're so right about the awful purity anti culture surrounding art where nothing can be ~problematic~ and that's not what I meant at all! (Again sorry if this is weird or too forward since we've never talked? You're friends & mutuals with a lot of my friends & mutuals so I hoped it wouldn't be TOO weird/bad 😓)

OK so first of all absolutely not weird to reach out ever at all don't feel awkward and secondly and more important if I can be honest this is why I shouldn't be allowed to blog at one in the morning because all I end up doing is being slightly irritated by something I mostly made up in my own mind and vagueblogging about it and it's rude so there's absolutely no need to apologize and I'd like to apologize actually for doing that because it was a twat move.

That makes total sense what you're saying and it is a banger set of themes for sure! I guess I'm always a little bit wary of anything that seems like fiction purity culture so I tend to lash out and again that wasn't fair of me at all.

And again absolutely not weird! We are I think defo mutuals-in-law and even if we weren't asks are never weird unless you're the guy who sent me one this morning telling me exactly why he blocked me in detail that was a little weird. Otherwise, fine.

I hope you're having a good time of it, and your day goes well! And thank you for saying something (positive and helpful and communicative) and I'm sorry for saying something (derogatory, early morning grouchiness).

[gillianthecat]

thoughts while watching Happy Merry Ending (episodes 4-6)

Episode 4:

This creep this creep omg I'm finding this CEO viscerally disturbing. Even when he's just sitting there. Kudus to the actor (and to the production in general). Oh no, he was Seung Jun's CEO too? This show is breaking my heart for this man, and the open-hearted person he was Before. He once was going to be an idol himself. And now I'm worried for this new idol that the CEO is probably trying to groom.

This actor can actually dance! I'm guessing he's an idol himself? I haven't checked.

One thing this show does very well is instantly create a feeling with the blocking, camera work, lighting, music, editing, etc. Yet subtly enough to not hit you over the head with it. It's immersing me in the emotions, and I think is also an important way of being efficient with the storytelling in such a short show. Anyway, the CEO here, all in black standing between Seung Jun and the mirror, is mildly terrifying.

Still feeling undecided about Jae Hyeon, and his aggressively inserting himself into Seung Jun's life with very few green lights from SJ. Still, he does have his awkward charm.

That final moment has me mostly convinced that Ho Yeon does have a crush on Seung Jun. Which, on the one hand I ship it cause I love Ho Yeon. But in the other hand, knowing his backstory now, I also wish for Seung Jun to have a good platonic friend solidly in his corner.

I've become quite impressed with Seung Jun's actor in this. This might end up being another one of those shows where I fall head over heels for one of the main characters, and the other one is... just kinda there. Not as much as in the last KBL I watched [redacted so I don't have to tag it], but my main interest in him is how he makes Seung Jun feel. (Unsurprisingly, it's another golden retriever seme paired with a reluctant uke that makes me feel this way.)

Episode 5:

Oh Ho Yeon. My baby. I changed my mind. I ship these old friends. The sadness on his face. The way he tried to rally for Seung Jun and be happy he was coming out of his shell.

Ok Jae Hyeon. The sunglasses get you MAJOR points. And them walking together after is cute. You're right, JH, it is nice to see SJ smile. But also. You keep apologizing for being intrusive, but then you do it again. I realize the seme in this sort of plot needs to be this active or the story won't go anywhere. But idk, I guess this character doesn't have quite enough charm to completely pull it off. At least for me.

What the fuck bro! Did you just KIDNAP Seung Jun?! And confiscate his fucking phone? I get it's supposed to be sweet caretaking, but y'all don't know each other like that yet. Are we sure this is a BL? I am NOT getting good vibes from this guy right now. And I was just thinking I really liked the show. How it wasn't my favorite trope but it the whole thing was well made. Please don't ruin in for me with an indistinguishably rancid new love interest to replace the rancid ex. 😩🥺

Unfortunately, that beach scene has converted me fully to second lead syndrome. They have so much better chemistry! I can see their connection. I could maybe imagine that eventually Jae Hyeon could develop that with Seung Jun, but he's rushing things along way too fast. That love confession left me completely cold. Which is not what I want from my love confessions! As for the kiss... 😂 well at least they tried, bless their hearts. They avoided a dead fish kiss. Did it look like either of them were paying any attention to each other as they moved their mouths? No, but I'll still give them credit.

I think at this point it's best for me to just watch this show not as a BL but as Seung Jun's story of healing. With Jae Hyeon just one of the people around him. And cross my fingers that the beautiful Ho Yeon, love of my life, doesn't end up being creepy and possessive too.

Episode 11: And then Seung Jun, having gained confidence from this whirlwind romance but realizing he doesn't actually know or even like this man very well, dumps Jae Hyeon and sees that the one he's been searching for has been there all along, steadily supporting him, quietly loving him. And he and Ho Yeon live happily ever after. No? That's not how it's gonna end? It already does in my mind. (I will SHRIEK with joy (and shock) if Ho Yeon turns out to be end game.)

This date would be cute if I shipped them.

Seung Jun telling Chan Wu that he can call, offering support to this new idol who could be in the same vulnerable place he was, Before. (I'm not entirely sure that's what the show is going for, but it's how I've decided to read it.) Also, I've really liked seeing Seung Jun's confidence when he's in teacher mode. This actor is giving him layers.

*whimper* every time this ceo is on screen I feel actual dread in my stomach. He doesn't feel like a cartoon villain, like many abusers on screen, he seems horrifyingly plausible. But Seung Jun manages to tell him off, which I'm guessing took a lot of courage. (But also, I'm still confused about what their relationship had been. Were they involved sexually? Did Seung Jun think they were dating? The episode title called him the "X" but also everything they've shown could just be Svengali-like grooming with no official lines crossed.)

Episode 6

Oh my darling. You were finally starting to heal and take risks and the this evil piece of shit comes to try and ruin you again. But you can be proud of yourself for holding it together while he was standing there. (Both actors are so good.)

You can see how much Ho Yeon is aching for him and wants to make it better but doesn't know how.

(Honestly these scene with Jae Hyeon don't manage to penetrate my brain, now that I'm not thinking about it as his story)

You evil manipulative shithead. Brave Seung Jun for facing down the source of his trauma to help this next generation of victim.

Oh Chan Wu. I can't even be mad at you. Poor thing is going to have to live with the guilt; I can see him feeling it, even if he doesn't understand what the manipulations are all about.

This confrontation scene was very well done. Too much to write about briefly.

But I'm also pretty sure that it clarifies that they were "romantically" together.

A brief bright flare of hope that Jae Hyeon was going to recognize his creepiness and the second half of the show should be a reckongk g. But no. Deflation. It seems he's just reminiscing fondly about it, and inspired to a second round of invasiveness. (Yes, Seong Jun ghosted him and yes he has the right to be concerned and sad. But. Still.)

So. This show is kind of odd. First of all, it's very well made. But it also seems to trying to tell two stories that are at odds with each other? There is the very classic seme-uke BL, with an extreme version of those roles. But then they went and made the "uke" way too complex for that, with too realistic a backstory to be fitted in to that trope-y slot. So Jae Hyeon is chugging along being a BL hero, unaware of all the undercurrents, while Seung Jun, who's been kind of drifting through life in a PTSD haze, seems like he's drifted into this relationship because it's there, and it's something new to try to escape the fog. But not because he had any real connection to this person who wants him but doesn't understand him.

Like this fight scene. It was well done. But Jae Hyeon comes running up like the hero seme protecting his uke from Generic Threat. Which feels kinda irrelevant to the work Seung Jun has done to heal and face his abuser. Not that he shouldn't get help; I appreciate the assist. I guess it just feels off to turn this complexity into a Romantic BL Momement. Or a possessive pissing contest between the alpha men. "I don't know what it was like before, but now I'm not letting him go." Like. How is that the right line for this situation?

I don't have PTSD, but this portrayal of it also feels grounded and real. Just to add to the dissonance. Not that there couldn't be a good BL involving a healing character. But one with this sort of genre-constricted seme ain't it. Not just my personal dislike, tonally and structurally it makes no sense. (I like this show a million times better than LITA. But this is a much gentler version of that same problem.)

Well. 40% or the show remaining, and I'm not really sure how they're going to use it. I know what I wish for, but doubt I (or Ho Yeon) will be that lucky. But with these two conflicting genres we're in, I can't guess what story will take precedence.

(Also, these eps are only 15 minutes and yet my notes keep getting longer and longer. Oh well, c'est la vie.)

[t4tpumpkinduo]

aheem heem 12 and then like. all of the 20s?

YES KISSA YOU O7 doing dsmp ones uhm

12. the unpopular character that you actually like and why more people should like them

well you already know what the hell i'm going to say...ceeschlatt i'm so sorry he only did some of that you guys are so annoying. i think a huge chunk of his story is just like. Canonically Textually way deeper and more sympathetic and more complicated than people want to acknowledge. guys will have direct blatent narrative foil parallels of their mistakes to their blorbo of choice but only one side will get a million excuses and only one side will get their pov analyzed. OK 👍. telephone game ass fanbase. read the parallel storyline of what would've happened had pogtopia won read the nov 16 script look at the canonical smplive isms analyze why someone would want to "revive someone for political power" desperate style after a funeral where it was Blatantly Clear that person has absolutely Zero Power and it paralleling the post charlie death insanity. and then you will calm down!!

honorable mention to ceefundy as well. i wouldn't say he's unpopular unpopular but goddamn. despite the fact he's so interesting and cool and inpactful and represents huge chunks of Core Themes, he just gets ignored and infantalized and has so much of his story plain Erased because it's inconvenient to other characters. Fucked!!!

20. part of canon you found tedious or boring

ceeranboo so sorry ok. iget why people like him i do but he is so so bland to me. shepards tone empty promise of a character. to me. some of his implications were pretty interesting, especially when it came to things that were more complicated, the exile isms the being knowingly complicit in ctommy prison murder or him drinking ableist copium abt tubbo being kind of unhinged. the centristism sometimes feeling less waffly and more like he's trying to people please to the point of exploding. too bad i do not care ☝️🔛🔝

21. part of canon you think is overhyped

and if i say tntduo..it's been so overhyped it overshadows everyone else it overshadows their own damn characters entire arcs and decisions and then the whole story itself they are not allowed to be anything except eachothers klance bait which was equally as mid. i do think there is value to it but at this point i am so exhausted about the oc versions being treated like canon when on screen its so bad out here sometimes. ppl going ohhh we never got resolution :[ ,,,.ccwilbur blatantly said what would've happened in the final tntduo stream. cwil would show back up to lnv in the same set up of his apologies but its a bait and switch that pivots into insulting q again and then finish it up w oh hey maybe yr not so bad after all 😂 and then he gives him a fist bump and leaves. there's yr closure. lea me alone

22. your favorite part of canon that everyone else ignores

i already said i think pumpkinduo is like funny comedy mallets for crazy people but i think most other things get attention properly? el rapids deserved more hype tho i srs think it would change how people see a lot of the characters involved

23. ship you've unwillingly come around to

im not sure? weird shit is a given but other than that who rlly care <- edit: HELP i misread the question i thought it was asking what you are Unwilling to come around to. so sorry. to answer the actual question uhm,,still not very sure hheheh im very solid in my dislikes and likes and complaints

24. topic that brings up the most rancid discourse

exile and the prison for sure :heart_hands: /RETCH. sure other things are very annoying but the levels these two arcs get to are Awful and Telling and Shitty the media illiteracy is off the charts. how you can watch streams with your eyes closed and ears closed and without registering the words or characters on the screen. what's going on. anyways if cdrm thinks torture is so bad maybe he should not talk about eye for an eye when he had tortured three people before he was even in the prison. but okay. also rip prison arc sam the world wasn't ready for a character like you 🙏

25. common fandom complaint that you're sick of hearing

i'm not sure? what are the most common complaints i do happen to agree with a lot of them i think

[taffy-glitch]

ok so. i apologize for blorboposting on main (just kidding i'm not sorry) but i've been having some Thoughts about Larry and Crimson and i just wanna try and put them to words and this is probably gonna be too long to post on the discord (big ole spoiler warning up to cpuk32/blue!!!)

So like. I find it very interesting that Crimson specifically chose Larry to be his "respawn point" in cpuk31/orange. Like, it makes a lot of sense from an in-universe perspective - Larry's shapeshifting ability is probably really useful for Crimson getting up to mischief, plus he knew from J0hn's intro that episode that J0hn and Larry (the two of them. together) were planning to get in his way. There's also the thing about Larry's deal with Cobalt, all of that. But I want to take a step back really quickly and think about the story implications of Larry and Crimson being stuck in the same vessel for the time being (with the preface that this probably wasn't specifically planned by Ryan, because a lot of the story is improv, this is just like. an observation)

So like. I feel like a part of Larry's character that doesn't get brought up as much (which, to be fair, a lot of the time you don't have to go further in your description of him than 'chaotic' and 'gay'), which is particularly highlighted in cpuk28/red, is just. idk how to word it aside from he just wants to be on good terms with everyone? And I don't mean in, like, a people-pleasing way, he just makes it a point to be friendly with everyone he's fighting against- chatting with Alabaster about how Juniper's doing, inviting Cupid to play backgammon, plus you've got little things in other episodes like the interaction with Twist and Chili's in cpuk17. Even with Cobalt, he refers to their relationship as a "rivalry" (which is. I mean it's something).

And this goes both ways- Folk even goes to him and J0hn for help at the end of cpuk31/orange even after the whole Sephiroth incident- and, I mean, it makes sense, right? Aside from a couple of... poorly thought-out scientific endeavors (he can be just a little unethical. as a treat) he's done mostly good in the grand scheme of things (the big things obviously being reviving The Grunk and defeating Doctor Order) (and not talking about the general, morally neutral chaos he commits outside of the tournaments) and is a pretty chill dude overall (not chill in a low-energy way but. y'know). We as the fans obviously love him, but he's also fairly well-liked in-universe because of that!

Now, you might ask, where am I going with this? Well, let's talk about Crimson for a minute. Crimson is, to put it bluntly, a rancid little bastard. Putting aside all of the possession stuff and killing The Grunk, like, he almost destroyed cpuk's dimension just because he wanted to see what would happen and because this dimension in particular was pissing him off (which, to be fair, there was a decent big of dimensional fuckery in season 1 that he probably wasn't happy with, but. that doesn't really excuse the fuckshit). And, understandably, most people strongly dislike him, because he hurt a lot of people and has shown basically no remorse.

But here's the thing. That was all up until cpuk32/blue. But in that episode, both Crimson and the audience learn something very important: that Crimson is the god of treachery. And that has to throw a bit of a wrench into Crimson's worldview, because sure, he's causing problems on purpose because he wants to, but how much of that is just because it's his "higher calling?" Would he be fine continuing as the way he was knowing that he was just doing what was expected, playing into Prism's plan all a long?

Now, again, consider the fact that he chose to possess Larry, specifically. And, despite the ways they're complete opposites, you can still draw comparisons between the two of them - J0hn outright says in cpuk31/orange that they're both chaotic as hell (also including himself in that). Regardless of what they actually think of each other, it's sure to be an interesting dynamic between the two of them, and I think that, if we do get to see the interactions between Crimson and Larry, they could have a real influence on where Crimson's character is going.

I'm not even saying I want a Crimson redemption arc, necessarily- I'm not sure what direction Crimson is developing in, but I do know that it's probably going to be. really interesting. And if he is going to get better, it would make sense that he's doing it while stuck with the Florida Man himself.

[ms-moonlight-inn]

Pseudo-tagged by the sweet-as-shit @sleepyfacetoughguy to answer these fandom questions:

When did you start watching shameless?

Relatively late, tough I don’t quite remember when. Maybe mid/late S9? It had always been on my radar, but I was deep into some other shows at the time & I knew this one was gonna cut deep so I kept putting it off. Sure enough...

How did you start getting involved in the gallavich fandom?

I’d been creeping for a while, like a fucking... creeper. First on the peripheral sites, looking a fanart & fan-related theories. Then, I finally pulled the trigger on the fanfic *whew* let’s just say shit went real downhill, real quick from there.

Favorite shameless character? (other than IxM).

In a lot of ways, I identify a lot Lip. I'm born & raised in the Los Angeles inner-city. Right on the outskirts of Downtown L.A.’s skid row. This was many of he reasons why I was drawn to Shameless; those first few seasons were like a love letter to the inner-city. In many ways, I was the smart kid who figured shit out way too much & way too early for my own good, just like Lip. And just like Lip, it led to some stupid denial. *yikes* Don’t worry, I managed to get most of my shit together. Most.

(Shit. Sorry. I’m doing Tumblr therapy! LOL!)

What plotline from the show irked you the most?

Fiona magically becoming an alcoholic never sussed out with me; wrong personality type if you ask me.

Gay Jesus.

Ian bottoming for Trevor.

Lip never capitalizing on his intelligence & instead seemingly choosing a blue collar life. Again, wrong personality type.

Favorite line from the show?

Too many to chose from. But, I am particularly fond of the way Ian delivers “Get the fuck out!” As he’s holding/pointing the kill bat against Frank. The delivery Cam chose is reminiscent of an old gangsta rap song that I can’t remember the name of it’s either an N.W.A. or Eazy-E song.

**edit**

I found the song! It’s Boyz-N-The-Hood by Eazy-E. Ha, ha, ha, ha! Y’all can’t peck my research skills; they are impeccable!

Fanfic(s) you can’t stop thinking about (not comprehensive but some initial thoughts):

SO many! A few of them aren’t on Ao3 anymore, which makes me cry. I’ll just type out the first few that pop in my head & apologize to anyone I’ve forgotten. Apologies if some are WIPs.

5 Times Ian and Mickey Never Kissed Under The Mistletoe And 1 Time They Did by @ianandmickeygallavich

To My Beloved Mickey by @dancermk

It’s Ok Angel by @notherenj-nowherenj

Enemy Lines by J_Q & stars_fall_on

Fingers On Your Soul by @stillbeatingheart

You’re Different, You’re Allowed To Be by @stillbeatingheart

The entire “Trope Me, Baby, One More Time“ series by Whatsastory

A Little Fun Never Hurt Anyone... by @camnoelgallavich & @doodlevich (shit, I hope I tagged them correctly *yikes*)

Against Glass by AllThatMatters

Jerkface 9000 by J_Q

Meet Me At The Track by @dancermk

Hooking Up With Feelings by @peppermintkatie

A Witch In Wicker Park by Horror Business

Devil's Mark by Lenatoutcourt

Hidden Secret by @gallavichgeek

Fuck there are so many more... I *know* I'm forgetting a lot of important ones. I'm so sorry if I forgot to mention you!

Best concert(s) you’ve been to:

The best concert I have been to lately has been the Rancid/Dropkick Murphys concert I went to this summer.

Not only was it my first concert in a really long time, but it was the first post-pandemic, big crowd thing that I had done. Plus, both bands played the old school shit that I grew up with!

Comfort movie franchise:

LOTR.

Nightmare Before Christmas.

The Crow.

Basically any good samurai shit.

I love the Resident Evil movies 'cause Mila Jovovich & Michelle Rodriguez are hot as shit running around with guns in their hands (Yes, I am a simple creature. So?).

Basically, any comic book movie out there.

Sports movies, especially the Rocky/Creed movies.

Music movies.

Piercings/tattoos:

A Thunderbird in turquoise surrounded by squash blossoms on my upper left bicep in representation of my grandmother. The design was taken from a ring that she wore on her deathbed.

A giant pink and purple dragon back piece. She's supposed to be a female dragon.

A jack o'lantern on my inner right forearm.

Both ears are double pierced. That's all the piercings I will do.

Most rewatched tv show?

Shameless.

Schitt's Creek.

Pitch. (It only had one season.)

Pet peeves:

Ugh. Don't get me started on this... Um, people who cannot say excuse me at the grocery store when you are in their way. Instead, they just stand there and stare at you until you somehow telepathically figure out that you are in their way. Then when you move over, they roll their eyes or give you a dirty look, as if somehow you were supposed to understand that you were in their way without them opening their mouths and simply say, "Excuse me, please."

Random fact about yourself:

I talk too fucking much. It's a sickness.

If you haven't done this yet, consider yourself tagged! Come play with me!

[harpticulation]

I understand where you're coming from. Understand that this counterpoint I'm making is NOT an attack or a criticism on you, your character, your feelings, your beliefs, or your actions. I see you and your posts all the time, and I respect and admire you as a prominent member of the Tumblr doll community. I need you to understand that before I say what I'm about to say.

Ok, here I go.

Counterpoint: whenever anyone makes an apology, people are quick to tear it apart and analyze every bit of it. If she made an apology showing her face, suddenly people would turn into body language experts, analyzing every facial movement, every gesture, every *lack* of gesture. Dollightful wanted to apologize and to have people focus on her words.

Yes, it was a bit... interesting that she used a doll. But I really don't know what else she could have done. If she used a black screen, she'd be accused of "reading from a lifeless script, didn't even care enough to put something on the screen, phoning it in".

But in cases like these, I'm afraid I have to put this question out there- if you (I do not mean you personally, OP; I mean anyone to whom the question applies) did not like her apology, then what would you like to see the person say/do in order to express their regret and state that they will do better in the future? I ask this because on Tumblr, it often seems like the answer is "there's nothing they can say or do ever. They are bad forever and no matter what good they do in the future, I will always bring this up because they will never be anything more than this action." (Again, I am not saying that this is you personally, OP; I am saying that this is what I have seen other people on this site do in other situations. I myself continue to do it with the Paul Brothers, whom I may never see as anything other than rancid sacks of raw sewage, no matter what good they do, at least for a long, long time.)

Anyway, as I said, I love seeing your posts and I love your work, and I will continue to do so. I believe we can have different takes on things and not have it affect our communications in the future when it comes to Dollblr.

2021 is beginning with a youtuber using her doll to make an apology video